Many years ago, a woman tried to encourage me in my difficult marriage with this verse:
“The LORD says, ‘I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten…’” – Joel 2:25a
I say she tried to encourage me with those words because I could not see what she possibly could’ve meant while in the middle of my pain. I couldn’t see any hope. I couldn’t see any change. I couldn’t see ever being in a loving relationship.
When that woman had given me that verse, her intent – which I fully understand – was that God would repay the years the locust had eaten from my first marriage somehow within my first marriage. That was her hope. (That was many people’s hopes.) That was even my hope for a very long time. But that is not what happened.
Fast forward several years. Twenty years of a hard relationship behind me plus four years of navigating being a single woman and a single mother in my rearview mirror, and I am remarried to a different man.
And on an almost daily basis, I am bowled over by the ways in which God is repaying me for that twenty years of angst and ache and longing.
Allow me to share some of those moments with you.
Me: I went to Target.
Response: Show me everything you bought… What did you get Q-Tips for?
Me: ummm…I’m sorry… (crying in the bathroom…)
Me: Hi honey.
Response: (texts a screenshot of a Facebook post of a sale going on at a local boutique) and says, “sale”.
Me: What kind of husband texts his wife about a clothing sale?
Response: Go get outfit, my cute wife.
Me: My heart, self-esteem, and mind being healed and restored and brought back to life.